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omg. im turning 21 in exactly 10 days. how time flies man. i cant imagine im THERE. where all the (supposedly) fun in life begins. freedom (as in driving license), maturity (nahhhhh dont think im ther yet), love, relationships, the few years left to be under mom n dad's bank accounts. i used to envy my sisters when they were where im now. its funner when u were the spectator. proly cuz you grow bored of doing the same thing. or proly cuz u make believe that freedom is fun when u want it, but when u have it, its nothing more than just doing stuff at your own pace, and later u just have to have more. but i know 1 thing i wont be bored of. my ability to drive like alonso (as dubbed by nikhanis). weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i guess what im trying to say is that when i look back, i cant say that my life is fulfilled. there are many things that i want to do, but havent gotten the opportunity to do it (blame it on the passive genes in me.. LOL). have yet to make a list of things to do in life, but i have a vague idea.
1. travel the world
2. go to a war torn country (but im afraid of wounds..hmmm)
3. make a difference in someone's life
4. shop til i max the credit card (oppps i dont believe in interest rate, debit card sounds better)
5. cut the baby fat (LOL.. still in denial its not baby fat)
6. go skinny dipping in sungai pahang (or any lake or sungai for that matter)
7. go for non-stop movie marathon
8. volunteer for a cause that i believe in

hmm. i cant think of anything else for now.
ive been really busy with assignments n the anxious feeling of final exams (cant think straight when im anxious). i really wana do something fun on my birthday. throw a party and dance the night away (my mom wud sooo kill me!) or have a great dinner party, or something. it is my 21st birthday anyway. its the mark of adulthood, ushering yourself to something bigger than just sending in homework on time or study hard and get good grades. LOL who am i kidding. im still doing that (excluding the latter). but anywho, i want to get out of this feeling of content. i want more.

sign,
aleee.